dear, juz read ur entry, so heres my reply.
first of all, itz ok lah, since its OUR blog, it doesnt matter who got down to doing it up mah.
as long there are traces of both of us in it, dats enough.

secondly, although i admit dat i cant say i am too happy with things right now, but its definitely not ur fault. i know this job is really impt to u, and i m glad to see u are enjoying it so much, at least it makes u happier at work den a job which u dun enjoy rite? u dun need to feel useless, becoz i know u are already trying to leave sum time for me, be it to meet up, tok online or on the fone. i can feel that too. as ur gf, its my responsibility to be mature and understanding abt ur job, becoz i noe if our situations are reversed, u will do the same for me too.

lastly, i agree to a certain extent dat wats past shld not be brought up as much as possible, becoz it holds no meaning to the present and future anyway. it shld juz be left as a lesson to learn from. but i guess i have to let u noe dat, i dunno why, but sum parts of the past juz cant be removed from my memory, no matter how hard i try. everytime it comes flooding back, i will subconsciously juz let it remain in me, till it naturally fades away again, or till i force it away. and immediatly after dat, i will feel guilty everytime i tink of u. its not dat i will act upon those memories, or even think of reliving them. the existence of those memories itself is enough to make me guilty. they shld be gone, juz like their reality. i dunno if i m expecting too much from myself, but i juz feel dat somehow, u still deserve 100% of me. but i juz cant give u dat yet.

i dunno how would u feel after reading the above. but i guess, since i asked u to share all ur feelings w me honestly, i shld do the same too. and since i have no guts to do it face to face, so do it here loh.

awaiting ur next entry.

Jo



Finally its my turn to do some posting. Thkz dear for spending the effort of setting up this blog that belongs to us. Promised I wanna do up one, but was always caught up with something else, sigh.

Nonetheless, our blog is up and its time for us to have our own privacy here. You had been held up with exams along the way and I just started on my new job. Time spent together was getting lesser. I can sense the frustration in you, yet I can't do anything much to help, such a useless me.

Glad that you enjoyed last nite's heart-to-heart conversation. I really don't mind having such conversations with you, as long as you're okie with it. And I can really "picture" the smile on your face. But sometimes I feel, not everything (as in 100%) has to be mentioned in such indepth context. Why? Because, who knows you might just hurt the other party's feeling without realising it? Or maybe, the other party is just too sick to bother bout' all these?

History, is what we learn from the past. And by learning bout' the past, it makes one understand the situation better and knowing what should and should not be done in the future. However, dwelling continuously on the past is not a good thing, as you will never see the future if you keep looking back.

My manager once said. "Don't ever regret and look back on what you'd chosen earlier on. Because, you're the one who chose this path and the past is already the past. Why look back, when there's plenty of tomorrows awaiting for you?"

So much for the craps, I'll be back for more.

Till then,

SasH.



hmmz, finally got down to typing my 1st post here.
honestly, it was really really nice to tok to u last nite.
an inhibited (nearly) conversation.
guess we haven tokked like that 4 quite sum time. shrugz.
after dat, i was damn high (according to cheryl).
went cosy bay with them coz i suddenly dun feel like going home.
was in the car with cheryl listening to music and doing stupid things, when she suddenly said "u are really diff when u r single and attached"
so as usual, i gave her the gong gong face and went "huh?"
den she say "when u r single u listen to all the sad sad songs, but now u do all the stupid stuff. i have never seen u so crappy b4 lah!" lol.
as usual, the egoistic me juz replied "aiya, muz be the combi of ciggies and grn tea lah, heh."
hmmz but now think abt it, i was really mad, i dun rmb doing anything like dat in my life so far.
lol, too happy lah.
we haven had long phone conversations since dunno when liao mah. heh.

anyway, decided not to go JB w my fren liao.
at least not for more den a day bah.
dun wry, i will keep myself busy w work, or wateva.

hmmz, kk shall stop here for now.
gonna continue searching for nice blogskins. :)



our 1st blog! :)
shall post my 1st post tmr.