baby, i m finally home.
thank you so much for coming to see me.
i can sense the tears welling in ur eyes on the 1st day, but i know u didnt wan me to be sad, so u held them bk.
but i know.
coz i have been looking at u every min i can.
becoz i haven seen u for so long, and i didnt know if i could see u again soon.

the 2nd day u came, u were much happier.
maybe coz i was healthier.
but wateva the case, its nice to see u smile.
i missed seeing u smile.
i missed hearing ur repetition of events over and over again.
i missed holding ur hands.
i missed being my face close to urs deliberately, juz to hint for a kiss.
i missed enveloping u in my arms.
basically, i juz missed u.

i have to be stuck at home for the next 2-3wks at least.
and dat means i cant see u again. :(
fortunately, i got sum of my voice bk, so the nights wun be as lonely as b4.
i hope dat it will be the 1st n last time u see me in hospital too.
coz it hurts to see u sad too.

i will take care of myself, dats my promise to u.



Baby has been admitted to CGH today. Ward 48, bed 24. Nearly cried when I see baby lying down on the bed and can't even talk. =(

Each time I see u coughin so badly, my heart just aches. I tried to control my tears because I dun wan baby to be sad cuz' of this as well. Godness of Mercy, please bless my baby to recover soon. She has already lost the smile on her face. I dun wish to see her in this state anymore.

Baby, promise me once u recovered, u gonna take very good care of your own health. Next time if u're feelin any unwell, PLEASEEEE go and see a doctor immediately and do not keep dragging on. And u said u'll be stronger and healthier than me so that you can take good care of me, once you see this blog entry, you must do it for me okie !!

My tears are rollin down now. But you will only see it after u discharged. Please, I hope this will be the one and only time I'm gg to a hospital to visit you.

Dear God, please bless my baby with good health and protect her from any harm...please. *tears*