dear, juz read ur entry, so heres my reply.
first of all, itz ok lah, since its OUR blog, it doesnt matter who got down to doing it up mah.
as long there are traces of both of us in it, dats enough.

secondly, although i admit dat i cant say i am too happy with things right now, but its definitely not ur fault. i know this job is really impt to u, and i m glad to see u are enjoying it so much, at least it makes u happier at work den a job which u dun enjoy rite? u dun need to feel useless, becoz i know u are already trying to leave sum time for me, be it to meet up, tok online or on the fone. i can feel that too. as ur gf, its my responsibility to be mature and understanding abt ur job, becoz i noe if our situations are reversed, u will do the same for me too.

lastly, i agree to a certain extent dat wats past shld not be brought up as much as possible, becoz it holds no meaning to the present and future anyway. it shld juz be left as a lesson to learn from. but i guess i have to let u noe dat, i dunno why, but sum parts of the past juz cant be removed from my memory, no matter how hard i try. everytime it comes flooding back, i will subconsciously juz let it remain in me, till it naturally fades away again, or till i force it away. and immediatly after dat, i will feel guilty everytime i tink of u. its not dat i will act upon those memories, or even think of reliving them. the existence of those memories itself is enough to make me guilty. they shld be gone, juz like their reality. i dunno if i m expecting too much from myself, but i juz feel dat somehow, u still deserve 100% of me. but i juz cant give u dat yet.

i dunno how would u feel after reading the above. but i guess, since i asked u to share all ur feelings w me honestly, i shld do the same too. and since i have no guts to do it face to face, so do it here loh.

awaiting ur next entry.

Jo